Caveman

I feel like a caveman with the walls of my cave collapsing on me. Sometimes I can’t think. Sometimes I feel like termites are eating at me. Barney Rubble. Ouch…

muscle twitches

ive been plagued with muscle twitches all week. everytime my focus shifts to being productive my legs start to act up. its unbearable. this is hell.

Again with the shocks

I’m being prevented from working because these muscle twitches. Every time I try to get productive, the twitches flare up.

Disruptions

This morning my legs were twitching. Then out of no where I began to feel all nervous so I had to stop what I was doing. I’m still feeling nervous energy for no reason. Trying to stay productive but this happened yesterday too.

Rumbling, Whining, Timing

My head is somewhat clearer. But I was tired at Bryan’s house over the weekend. Plus, my ears have been ringing. Both sides high and low. Makes me want to do nothing. I would try to sleep but the way my sleep has been going lately I would toss and turn for hours in anguish over the noise. The timing is suspect. In the hours after the day is over and before I go to bed. The noises are agonizing.

I will be trying to work on this side project this week and restore a semblance of normalcy but it’s time like this (which happen everyday at all different hours) that drop me to my knees.

Drifting

I’ve been waking up later and later every day. If I try to go to bed earlier, I can’t fall asleep. When I finally do get to sleep, I don’t want to get out of bed. Yesterday night was not a pleasant experience. It didn’t feel like I slept any. It felt like I had my eyes closed to 2 or 3 hours before I woke up stressed out. I finally got to bed but I woke up way too late. It would  be nice to absorb some sunlight for a change.

Played horrendous basketball today. My shot wasn’t there. Instead, this nasty motion that barely passes for a shot and follow through replaced my jumper.

I have this itch to play golf but I feel like it’s just another exercise in frustation. I can only deal with playing one bad sport at a time.

I hope this isn’t the change that Obama promised because it’s getting worse. My ears are starting to bother me so I’ll go now. Also, felt the muscle twitches during basketball today which was something new. I hope that isn’t something permanent.

Walls

I have not been feeling well lately. I feel forgetful. I hope this does not continue.

Change: Day 6

My ears are ringing quite loudly now. Very high pitched. I think the sound is always there but since it’s at such a high pitch right now, it’s very bothersome. Just saw Yes Man this evening. It was an ok flick I guess. Definitely better than the Cable Guy but not as funny as his earlier stuff. There are some lessons to be learned in that movie I suppose. Namely, having a positive attitude and saying Yes to everything aren’t the same thing. In fact, Jim learns that having an open mind is just the beginning. It’s up to us to decide for ourselves if our decisions are correct.

Went to the pool today. Didn’t swim that long. Maybe 20 minutes or so. Kinda refreshing. The tinnitus wasn’t noticeable then. I need to get a haircut. They say we’ll be getting our first wintry mix tomorrow. I’ve always loved the snow. It’s very serene. Noises are muffled. Everything is white. A beautiful gift from mother nature.

Change: Day 1

Slept like crap. Woke up constantly. Drifted in and out of sleep. Stayed home and suffered some more while sleeping. the verge of consciousness and then zap, I’m awake. Finally rolled off the floor early evening. Went to 7-11 and got dinner, or breakfast or whatever. Guy in front of my in line took the longest time. First it’s hotdogs, then it’s that drink isn’t mine. Meanwhile the other employee was messing with the lotto machine unable to help me. Got home. Ate. Went back to sleep. Zip Zap. Finally woke up again late night. Was very thristy. Went to 7-11 again. Got a drink. Now that I think about it, the guy in line was from the second 7-11 trip. Came home, washed the dog. Poor thing has a skin disorder that makes him itchy. Checked my email. Basketball cancelled. Checked facebook. Everyone living their lives. My life stolen from me and there’s not a damn thing I can do about it. My head hurts from last night’s abuse.

the end of an error?

Today, our nation officially swears in Barack Obama as President of the United States of America. That being said, it will take more than just one person to make the changes necessary to better this country. It will take hard work and due diligence to restore credibility to this nation.

When I was younger, we used to recite the pledge of allegiance every morning. I don’t know if they still do that in school anymore but it went like this:

“I pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America, and to the Republic for which it stands: one Nation under God, Indivisible, With Liberty and Justice for all.“

The world revolves. Countries evolve. Technologies solve. But there’s something to be said about correcting the mistakes we’ve made in the past. I voted for Obama in the hope that his words about unity and equal rights for all were more than just news bites. Every human being is endowed with certain inalienable rights. To violate those rights is the gravest of injustices. My hope is President Obama works to correct these injustices.