Down and Out

I’m feeling down today. It’s like the world compresses on you. Your vision, it narrows. Instead of looking miles ahead, you’re looking down and thinking in terms of feet. Sometimes, I can’t get past my own head. Hopeless. I got a phone call for some PC work. I’m sick on helping others. Why should I help others when my world is so dim and clouded? Lots of sighing today. Even went to the pool and still feel like this. Avoiding social situations outside. Don’t mind spending time with friends indoors somewhere but can’t stand the bar scene or eating out anymore. I still sleep on the floor. If you’re not living, you’re dying. I’m dying.